I'm going to have a heart attack.
we actually discussed 40+ cases in consti kahapon. di ko alam kung tatalon na lang ba ako sa bintana or what. it's like everytime i'm going to class, unti unting nababawasan ang buhay ko. MENTAL TORTURE TALAGA. it's a good thing i wasn't called 'coz halos wala rin akong binasa sa mga cases. i dunno what i would've done if Cande called me.
ay alam ko pala, "I'm sorry sir, I haven't read the case." o di naman kaya, "Sir, PASS." the dreaded word. kinikilabutan ako.
i mean, it's like feeling hot and cold at the same time. super bilis ng heartbeat mo. nagha-hyperventilate ka na. every worse feeling that you can feel andun na. kala mo tuloy it's the last 2 hours of your life. haha. sayang you can't make any special request considering that it's almost "execution time". sheesh, CRIM ba ito?
it would be so much better if you get called for the first few cases kesa sa last coz most probably (definitely pala) you wouldn't have read the last section or something. but supposing you do get called and you actually know what your talking about, the relief you feel afterwards is so "liberating". para bang di mo na pasan ang buong mundo (at least for that day).
another scenario would be the torture you'd have to feel habang inaantay mo kung matatawag ka ba o hindi. actually, ang kapalit nang di pagtawag sayo would be having to endure the anxiety for the entire period. after ng class, everyone who didn't get called would be sighing out loud in relief and looked like they just had a second chance at life.
sobra na talaga tong Consti, i really don't know what i'd do if i don't pass this. after all i've been through? haay, so depressing.
