The Waiting Game is becoming so tiring. I should just shift to Neutral Mode. Don’t really wanna go back to THAT PLACE again. Coz I know for a fact that it’ll be so hard to bounce back. Let’s just keep on floating in limbo where at least the possibility of getting hurt would be extremely minimal. Sure, things happen but I won’t allow my thoughts to wander about to things that might not happen at all. To not expect is truly difficult. But I’ve managed to do it for some time haven’t I? Maybe it’s because Disappointment has visited me so many times that I’ve finally become immune to it. I’d just let it pass like sand through my fingers. But still, a few grains remain stuck on my hands and I’d have to shake it off really hard for it to come off. And I mean really hard.

But I’m really happy for the past few things that occurred, I’ve been praying really hard for that. In fairness, kay Lord, ang bilis ng response ha. Hehe. I’ll just continue on with my prayers. If it’s meant to be and it’s His will, I know it will happen. If not, I guess it wasn’t right for me to begin with. That would be really sad but I’d have to accept that.

I’ll never forget it coz I had a glimpse of the things that could be. And it felt right.