It finally happened. After all those weeks of thinking about it...finally. And I can let my mind rest. No more regrets. I'm happy that I went through with it instead of thinking about the what-ifs and the mental "kicking myself in the head" for being scared and indecisive. It was a no-strings attached situation and well... I really wasn't expecting more from it. I'm glad I went.
The situation was a bit weird though. I feel like laughing at myself for not knowing what to do. Haha. Stupid. Stupid. But still, I wonder what I would do if I catch myself in another instance like that. Sometimes inexperience is soooo frustrating...in a funny way at least. Gaad. I sure hope I won't pull that stint again. So embarassing. Novice.
But it made me realize one thing. I guess I'm still willing to wait and not just take on whatever's out there. I still want that special connection. I guess it's really a big factor that I didn't get a chance to go on a deeper level but still... it'll be something worth reminiscing.
Though it didn't go the way I thought it would, the way things happened was to say the least...sufficient. I needed it for the "closure" that I wanted to achieve and now I'm ready to move on with the rest of my complicated life.
Back to the old issues then.
Special thanks to my worrywart "mom" Rachelle and to Irish for staying. Sorry. :D And to the three who waited for me in vain at Starbucks, Ces, Patty and Euns: I'm really not "artista" material, sorry for being such a lousy guest at "The Buzz" (your version). Here's a hint though, at little (just a little) something did transpire...I'll leave it to your imagination. Coz I really can't bear to talk about the stupid, funny thing I did.
Basta. I'm ok na. I won't be blaming you guys for it ever again. Pramis. Mwah!!!!
I was with Rache yesterday and we went to get a reading. Since I was having a dilemma for the longest time, I wanted to go there and get a re-affirmance of what I have already decided to do. And when I asked that question, well...Sandy didn't exactly encourage me. Actually, she discouraged me from pursuing the matter further. So there I was, I felt like a huge weight has finally come off of me and I was about to let the issue rest. But no! Fate really is funny. All of a sudden, I got what I was asking for. I was so bewildered by the fact. Rache was like, "O, wag ka kiligin." But can I help it? I really don't have serious intentions of going after it. I am actually satisfied by the fact that all those moments I spent thinking and wishing were not in vain. But, if it happens, it happens. I'm not going to make an extra effort coz I already have an idea of what's about to transpire. And well...after all the warnings Sandy gave me...haha...we'll just have to see.
Another aspect of my reading was about my issue for the longest time. It was just unnerving that she knew about that person and our "interactions". And what she told me was very, very encouraging but of course it wouldn't be without a lot of complications. I guess I am happy that there's a huge possibility of us going towards that direction but we still have to see what's gonna happen in the next few months. Coz frankly, I'm getting really, really tired of the situation. Tired and distracted. And I most certainly do not need distractions this sem. Striving for Excellence! Seriously though, I would just go with the flow. Maybe perhaps meet the situation half-way when it's already there but I don't wanna exert all the extra effort just to create the situation. I guess I've already passed that stage. And I do think I've done enough. We'll just leave the rest to the other person. I really do hope that the complexities will work out soon. I'm getting tired of waiting...but I'm still here...
I just hope Sandy's right.
Another aspect of my reading was about my issue for the longest time. It was just unnerving that she knew about that person and our "interactions". And what she told me was very, very encouraging but of course it wouldn't be without a lot of complications. I guess I am happy that there's a huge possibility of us going towards that direction but we still have to see what's gonna happen in the next few months. Coz frankly, I'm getting really, really tired of the situation. Tired and distracted. And I most certainly do not need distractions this sem. Striving for Excellence! Seriously though, I would just go with the flow. Maybe perhaps meet the situation half-way when it's already there but I don't wanna exert all the extra effort just to create the situation. I guess I've already passed that stage. And I do think I've done enough. We'll just leave the rest to the other person. I really do hope that the complexities will work out soon. I'm getting tired of waiting...but I'm still here...
I just hope Sandy's right.
It all started with us planning to go to the beach for the summer/rainy season. We just can’t let all the hard work and stress we’ve been through during our break consume us altogether! (naks) So it was settled, we’ll go to the beach. The first plan was to go to Bora, but due to unforeseen circumstances/financial constraints (since we were counting the eggs before they hatched, so to speak), we settled on Galera.
Ngunit, subalit, datapwa’t…lahat na lang ng hadlang sa mundo nangyari na. First off, we couldn’t decide which date were we supposed to go, we had to consider canvassing for the elections, internship of other people, those who had to go home to their provinces, the weather… lahat na. In the end, almost everyone backed out.
And then there were THREE. Haze, Ces and Euns. We almost didn’t go na rin but we decided to push through. We even entertained the thought of going somewhere else like Zambales, buti na lang we didn’t. Considering na we don’t have accommodations waiting for us there in the first place. So we were set. We’re finally going to Galera.
27 May 2007
The plan was to meet up at Jac Liner in Cubao at 7 am. Kumusta naman? I slept at around 3 am and woke up when Ces texted me at 6. In short, our ETA at the bus station was approximately 8:30 since I had to pass by Mercury to buy Bonamin for the boat ride and we had to pick up Ces who was apparently over at AliMall in the wrong bus terminal. Bwahaha.
The bus ride was for like 3 hours max. Then we were at the Batangas Port. And we found out that the boat that was supposed to take us there had already left so we decided to ride another one, the MV Falcon with its red curtains and flags. The boat ride was quite long, almost two hours coz we had to stopover another island and I actually thought that that was already Galera and I was soooo dismayed and disappointed (kumusta naman ang concrete ang lahat ng bagay dun at walang beach in sight). Buti na lang I was wrong.
Ngunit, subalit, datapwa’t…lahat na lang ng hadlang sa mundo nangyari na. First off, we couldn’t decide which date were we supposed to go, we had to consider canvassing for the elections, internship of other people, those who had to go home to their provinces, the weather… lahat na. In the end, almost everyone backed out.
And then there were THREE. Haze, Ces and Euns. We almost didn’t go na rin but we decided to push through. We even entertained the thought of going somewhere else like Zambales, buti na lang we didn’t. Considering na we don’t have accommodations waiting for us there in the first place. So we were set. We’re finally going to Galera.
27 May 2007
The plan was to meet up at Jac Liner in Cubao at 7 am. Kumusta naman? I slept at around 3 am and woke up when Ces texted me at 6. In short, our ETA at the bus station was approximately 8:30 since I had to pass by Mercury to buy Bonamin for the boat ride and we had to pick up Ces who was apparently over at AliMall in the wrong bus terminal. Bwahaha.
The bus ride was for like 3 hours max. Then we were at the Batangas Port. And we found out that the boat that was supposed to take us there had already left so we decided to ride another one, the MV Falcon with its red curtains and flags. The boat ride was quite long, almost two hours coz we had to stopover another island and I actually thought that that was already Galera and I was soooo dismayed and disappointed (kumusta naman ang concrete ang lahat ng bagay dun at walang beach in sight). Buti na lang I was wrong.
When we finally reached Galera…umulan. Yun na talaga. Para bang isang malaking joke ang aming pagpunta dun. We were so tired that we checked in, ate lunch, went up to our room and slept till 7 pm. It was a good thing that the rain stopped and we went out for dinner. 
Dinner was just in front of the place we stayed. Our location was actually really great since as we call it “It’s the place to be”, in Galera. Dun kami tumambay sa bar just across our hotel. Good food, great music, what more could you ask for? With that, I eventually realized that all of the “waitresses” in the bar were gay. And kumusta naman ang mga outfits and pag-rampa? I swear. Even I can’t tell if some of them were actually girls or not. They weren’t really accommodating to our group (I wonder why?) Haha. Maybe it’s coz we didn’t have any guys with us. Wala naman silang mapapala sa min eh.
So we ordered a pitcher of Mindoro sling, na diyos ko, lasang Robitussin (that’s according to Ces ha) Hehe. And I ordered a Margarita. And I think we had some beer. I can’t remember na actually. After we paid the bill, we went down the beach and just chilled there for a while. Haaay. I miss it already.
28 May 2007
We woke up late the next day. Around 10 I think. Anyway, the Lord was so good to us coz he finally let the sun shine! Yay! So we ate breakfast, changed and headed out to the beach. We walked around the beach first and Euns decided to go get a henna tattoo. She got a phoenix on her back as of now (na according to other people ay isang sarimanok!). Our next agenda: BANANA BOAT RIDE. The manong asked us to sign something and the good law students that we are, we read first before signing. Lo and behold! It was a waiver. Na in case you die out there in sea or something, they will not be held liable and in case you’d need medical attention, you’ll allow them to perform it but you’d have to pay up for whatever are the expenses of actually saving your life. Kumusta naman di ba?
Finally, like little kids, we put on our life jackets and got on. Since tatlo lang kami, we had two other companions, younger teens who were scared and excited at the same time. Tinanong pa kami ni manong, ilang “taob”? At first I was like, “Huh? Taob?” Ayun naman pala, ang tanong ay ilang beses kami magpapahagis sa gitna ng karagatan. Bwahaha. We “coerced” the two kids to agree na twice kami magpapa-taob.
The ride was fantastic. Minus the fact that the manong brought us to this part of the sea which was already dark blue and he was telling us there were sharks there. Grrr. Anyway, our first “taob” was near the cave dun sa may dulo, where the water was still green and you could still see the bottom of the sea. When we hit the water, pagkamalas ko naman talaga at kinailangan ko pa talagang mauntog dun sa nasa likod ko. Para bang headbutt ang dating. Ouch! In fairness, gumana ang life jackets (we were kidding around kasi before the ride na hindi magwo-work yung mga yun). The second “taob” was near the shore. When it happened, that was when we realized that “anak ng shet! Malalim ang tubig!” Kumusta naman ang mga hindi marunong lumangoy di ba? I now realize na I panicked so much that I forgot I was wearing the life jacket and I could’ve just floated towards the shore, kasi I was frantically swimming towards it until my feet reached the floor beneath. Bwahaha. Stupid Hazel.
After that, I had one of my “bright ideas” as according to Ces. I made us walk down to almost the end of the beach in my attempt to avoid other people while we go burn ourselves under the sun. The waves there were a bit rough so we were stuck swimming near the shore lang. But, the trendsetters that we are, people started coming our way and also decided na that was a good place to soak up the sun. Damn.
We were forced to pack up by the large, gloomy clouds from the mountains. Not to mention the ambon and thunder that came along with it. The rain fell really hard. As in. Kala mo tuloy may bagyo at wala nang katapusan ang ulan. We were dismayed that we would have to spend the rest of the night in our room since most of the establishments around us were packing up. Losers!
But still, the Lord loves us. At around 9 pm, the rain finally stopped and the bar started setting up, so we decided to get ourselves some drinks. We first sat sa may bar mismo since most of the tables were still wet from the rain. We just ordered San Mig Light this time coz I don’t think we enjoyed the “Robitussin” very much. Eventually we transferred to a table.
The night started to pick up when a group of magicians were apparently at the bar and were doing all sorts of tricks. We decided to take a look but when we got there, the trick was already done. So we went back to our table. Then all the ruckus by the bar went on again and by that time tinamad na kong lumapit, so Ces and Euns left me sa table. That was the biggest mistake of my entire life! A guy approached me and asked for a light and he started talking to me and asking for my number. And in my mind I was like, “No way man!” Buti na lang Ces saw me and saved me from my agony when they returned to the table. They wanted to watch the magic show yet again, and this time I came along. But the horrible stuff kept on coming…dammit. Ces and I were just around, nakikiusyoso when these two guys came up behind us and offered us drinks. I said, “No thanks, I still have some.” Then turned my back on him. I kept on nudging Ces to control the situation, coz no way am I talking to those guys again. Sabi nga ni Ces, pinain ko sya. Sorry dude, I really didn’t know what to do. Then this guy says to Ces (or something to this effect), “You like magic? What if I told you that I can do magic?” Yun na. The “magic words”. We just had to get away from there. Then those guys were actually ordering drinks for us and I signaled the “waitress” NO! and Ces and I escaped as far away as possible. Eunice who was calmly, sitting on the stool didn’t know what to do, so she followed us. Ces and I went down the stairs while Euns jumped from the platform. Up until now, hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit mo ginawa yun. Payn. Payn. Madilim. Hindi mo nakita ang hagdan. But still… Laughtrip ka! Sabi nya nga, pinatalon nyo ko sa bangin! Muntik na nga ata syang mag-split sa taas nung tinalon nya.
So we returned to our table and I was freaking like hell. I really wanted to get out of there in case those guys had any other ideas. But I sure am glad Euns talked us out of it coz we got ourselves a private magic show from Derrick and Oliver who was also with another friend Mark. (Euns, wink! wink)
I was so fascinated with everything they did. As in WOW! Ang galing! I really can’t remember all of the tricks they did though. I’ll try to share what I remember. There was this trick when Derrick asked me to pick a card, he shuffled the deck and asked me to press the deck (while he was saying “toot!”, sabi nga ni Euns, “parang elevator lang ah! Haha.), and we did that a couple more times and for the last time, I was expecting that the card would be on top of the deck, so I turned it over, but it was the wrong card! I started to react and when I looked at him, my card (I think it was the Queen of Hearts) was already in his mouth. I was so surprised and dumbstruck. I ended up laughing so hard.
Another trick he did was he asked us three to each pick a card from the deck and keep it. And he was like, “Think of your card” and he would just look at you as if trying to read your mind. Well, in the end, he knew what our cards were. Freaky. I also remember him taking Ces’ flip top and then he opened the plastic underneath and then he sealed it back with his fingers. He just rubbed it a few times and that was it! I was so frustrated trying to figure out how he did it.
He did this stupid yet funny thing though, he asked me to put my palms together. Then he put his hands over mine and started rubbing my hands. And I was like, “Tapos?” Sabi nya, “Wala lang. It just felt good to do that.” Sabay high five. Yun na. Tawa talaga ko ng tawa. I was punked by that “trick”!
Then Oliver came over and started to do more tricks for us. But the best one yet was when, he managed to take Ces’ watch from her wrist without her even feeling it. Ces was like, “No shit!” Galing! (Di ba obvious na bilib na bilib ako sa kanila? Haha). Another trick he did was when he made the cards float in the air. Wala. Speechless ako.
I also remember Derrick, while at the bar, he made this trick where he managed to put the beer cap inside the bottle from underneath the bottle and also from the side of the bottle while the opening of the bottle was covered by a finger! He also did this other trick where he took off his ring, placed it on the table and the ring moved towards him.
Haaay. I love magic.
28 May 2007
For our final day, we had some serious sunbathing to do. Ngarag na ngarag ako coz I didn’t get any sleep at all, coz Euns caught a cold or something and she was tossing and turning the entire night! I should’ve gone out na lang pala at nag-hangout sa beach, I am sooo regretting that. Seriously, I am hating myself right now...
Anyway, we ate breakfast then we went for a swim. The water was great. We then lay under the sun for several minutes pero di ko kinaya. Ayoko maging kirara no! Of us three, ako tuloy yung parang hindi nag-beach. Haha. Kebs.
We packed up our stuff and checked out. I was really sad we didn’t get to say goodbye to Derrick and the rest of the guys. They actually went to see us off but it was a little too late. We were already on the boat by the time they got there. Sadness.
And so we headed for Manila.
The Galera Trip was sooo worth it. I am so glad na tinuloy natin to guys! Despite everything that was in our way, we made it. Who’s the bitch now?!! Bwahaha! Let’s go back sa sembreak!
I JUST WANNA BE ON THE BEACH….SUNBURN!!!!
Then Oliver came over and started to do more tricks for us. But the best one yet was when, he managed to take Ces’ watch from her wrist without her even feeling it. Ces was like, “No shit!” Galing! (Di ba obvious na bilib na bilib ako sa kanila? Haha). Another trick he did was when he made the cards float in the air. Wala. Speechless ako.
I also remember Derrick, while at the bar, he made this trick where he managed to put the beer cap inside the bottle from underneath the bottle and also from the side of the bottle while the opening of the bottle was covered by a finger! He also did this other trick where he took off his ring, placed it on the table and the ring moved towards him.
Haaay. I love magic.
28 May 2007
For our final day, we had some serious sunbathing to do. Ngarag na ngarag ako coz I didn’t get any sleep at all, coz Euns caught a cold or something and she was tossing and turning the entire night! I should’ve gone out na lang pala at nag-hangout sa beach, I am sooo regretting that. Seriously, I am hating myself right now...
Anyway, we ate breakfast then we went for a swim. The water was great. We then lay under the sun for several minutes pero di ko kinaya. Ayoko maging kirara no! Of us three, ako tuloy yung parang hindi nag-beach. Haha. Kebs.
We packed up our stuff and checked out. I was really sad we didn’t get to say goodbye to Derrick and the rest of the guys. They actually went to see us off but it was a little too late. We were already on the boat by the time they got there. Sadness.
And so we headed for Manila.
The Galera Trip was sooo worth it. I am so glad na tinuloy natin to guys! Despite everything that was in our way, we made it. Who’s the bitch now?!! Bwahaha! Let’s go back sa sembreak!
I JUST WANNA BE ON THE BEACH….SUNBURN!!!!
Omigod. The past few days have been sooo tiring. Since we were deployed to support our candidate, we had to endure the heat, the people, and the stress all at the same time. During election day, we were asked to go to particular polling places and sort out some problems. It's so sad that the COMELEC's so inefficient to the point na there were a lot of supposed registered voters who were unable to vote since their names were not on the three separate list it provided. I mean, it's disenfranchisement to the highest level (if there's such a word). It's not the people's fault if they weren't given their Voter's ID. That's the COMELEC's job. Sayang talaga. And it's so frustrating na at that time, we weren't able to help them out because it was really out of our hands.
It's just so funny how so many people address us as "Attorney", and you'd have to explain to them that you're only a paralegal. But eventually, you'd get tired of explaining and just resign to the fact that you're being addressed that way, two years too early. But still, nakakatuwa ang feeling. Yihee...
It's so depressing, (since I've seen it firsthand) how local elections can get really dirty. Garapalan na talaga. Tipong, they've done all things that is expressly prohibited by law like vote buying and campaigning on election day. Truly unfair kung malinis maglaro ang kandidato mo. Also, I see the value of the pollwatchers, you really have to take care of them or else there's an extremely high possibility na they'll go against you. It's either you get really competent people or true loyalists, coz if you don't wala talagang magbabantay ng mga boto mo. Plus the fact that some people throw their weight around just so to intimidate other people. That can be so irritating. It's not as if you can be exempted from everything. You still have to follow the rules.
In fairness, kahit na nakakapagod, I've learned so much from this experience. And I've interacted with so many new people, well mostly lawyers. Since we were paired up with a great group of them, we had a chance to horse around with some of them. Nakakatuwa lang na they don't want to be called Ma'am or Sir. I've already gotten used to calling them by their first names and omitting the "pos" in my sentences. Grabe, may sayad din talaga yung iba! Kung ano ano ang mga naiisip gawin. But when it comes to getting down and dirty, they do their jobs really really well. Nakaka-impress sobra.
Presently, we're still not done with our job and we're already extending. But still, I'm really enjoying every moment of it. Pero nakakasuka na talaga ang mga ERs, pano ba naman yun na lang ang nakikita ko araw araw. Haha! And I don't think I'll be eating at McDo for the next few months since we've been eating there since forever. Blah. Buti na lang naiba naman ang kinainan namin kanina. Fast food galore. So unhealthy. Grrrr. But I would have to bear with it.
Must go for EXCELLENCE!!! Bwahahaha!!!
It's just so funny how so many people address us as "Attorney", and you'd have to explain to them that you're only a paralegal. But eventually, you'd get tired of explaining and just resign to the fact that you're being addressed that way, two years too early. But still, nakakatuwa ang feeling. Yihee...
It's so depressing, (since I've seen it firsthand) how local elections can get really dirty. Garapalan na talaga. Tipong, they've done all things that is expressly prohibited by law like vote buying and campaigning on election day. Truly unfair kung malinis maglaro ang kandidato mo. Also, I see the value of the pollwatchers, you really have to take care of them or else there's an extremely high possibility na they'll go against you. It's either you get really competent people or true loyalists, coz if you don't wala talagang magbabantay ng mga boto mo. Plus the fact that some people throw their weight around just so to intimidate other people. That can be so irritating. It's not as if you can be exempted from everything. You still have to follow the rules.
In fairness, kahit na nakakapagod, I've learned so much from this experience. And I've interacted with so many new people, well mostly lawyers. Since we were paired up with a great group of them, we had a chance to horse around with some of them. Nakakatuwa lang na they don't want to be called Ma'am or Sir. I've already gotten used to calling them by their first names and omitting the "pos" in my sentences. Grabe, may sayad din talaga yung iba! Kung ano ano ang mga naiisip gawin. But when it comes to getting down and dirty, they do their jobs really really well. Nakaka-impress sobra.
Presently, we're still not done with our job and we're already extending. But still, I'm really enjoying every moment of it. Pero nakakasuka na talaga ang mga ERs, pano ba naman yun na lang ang nakikita ko araw araw. Haha! And I don't think I'll be eating at McDo for the next few months since we've been eating there since forever. Blah. Buti na lang naiba naman ang kinainan namin kanina. Fast food galore. So unhealthy. Grrrr. But I would have to bear with it.
Must go for EXCELLENCE!!! Bwahahaha!!!
Yesterday was my last day at the firm. Didn't do much. We had lunch over at Tang City (aww...last lunch ko na yun dun). Then come afternoon, we went to Raffy's office so that Ricel could browse over the books on Arbitration. We stayed there for a few minutes since we were just waiting for the time. May isang makulit na tao na gustong mag-send ng email na buti na lang napigilan ko. Bwahaha. As if. You'd never send that anyway. 
Then we returned to our floor to waste more time and Raffy came up para manggulo. Apparently he wrote, "Hazel was here" on the white board of one of the conference rooms. Kala mo di ako gaganti? HAH! So I wrote, "I was here. -Raffy del Rosario (smiley face)" Kumusta naman ang mga immature kids.
Speaking of the expression, "Kumusta naman" wala na talaga, everytime I say it, I remember both of you tuloy. And ngayon ko lang napansin na super dalas ko ngang banggitin ang expression na yun. Pero eto lang ha, I'm sorry pero dapat spontaneous ang pagsabi mo ng expression na yun and right at the perfect moment! Halata pag nage-effort eh! Hahaha.
Ayun. For dinner we ate at Coquina's and had some beer afterwards. It was really fun. Chillax moments after work. Then we headed over to Malcolm's for dessert but NOOO!!! wala na yung apple crumble ni Ricel (and she's been craving that since we finished dinner! sayang.) So we decided to go to CBTL at Tordesillas while arguing on the way as to which route was shorter from Citibank to Malcolm's. Apparently, we were talking of different routes, one was through Valero then Dela Costa while the other was through Villa-Leviste-Dela Costa. Kaya pala di kami magkaintindihan. Sabi ko nga, usapang lasing.
At CBTL, Ricel ordered the Mango cake which was hardly Mango at all and I got a Macchiato which was in this tiny, tiny cup. Waaah. Expensive! 90 bucks for that? Pero, it was effective nonetheless, sobered me up instantly. Then we finally decided to go on home.
But my day didn't end there. I still went to Good Earth after dropping off Ricel and met up with Ces and Joan. I had two more beers. Ces and I were celebrating since it was our last day at work and we had sooo much fun talking and ahem bashing (konti lang naman), *L****S. (Evil laugh)
Happy. Happy. Perfect day.
Then we returned to our floor to waste more time and Raffy came up para manggulo. Apparently he wrote, "Hazel was here" on the white board of one of the conference rooms. Kala mo di ako gaganti? HAH! So I wrote, "I was here. -Raffy del Rosario (smiley face)" Kumusta naman ang mga immature kids.
Speaking of the expression, "Kumusta naman" wala na talaga, everytime I say it, I remember both of you tuloy. And ngayon ko lang napansin na super dalas ko ngang banggitin ang expression na yun. Pero eto lang ha, I'm sorry pero dapat spontaneous ang pagsabi mo ng expression na yun and right at the perfect moment! Halata pag nage-effort eh! Hahaha.
Ayun. For dinner we ate at Coquina's and had some beer afterwards. It was really fun. Chillax moments after work. Then we headed over to Malcolm's for dessert but NOOO!!! wala na yung apple crumble ni Ricel (and she's been craving that since we finished dinner! sayang.) So we decided to go to CBTL at Tordesillas while arguing on the way as to which route was shorter from Citibank to Malcolm's. Apparently, we were talking of different routes, one was through Valero then Dela Costa while the other was through Villa-Leviste-Dela Costa. Kaya pala di kami magkaintindihan. Sabi ko nga, usapang lasing.
At CBTL, Ricel ordered the Mango cake which was hardly Mango at all and I got a Macchiato which was in this tiny, tiny cup. Waaah. Expensive! 90 bucks for that? Pero, it was effective nonetheless, sobered me up instantly. Then we finally decided to go on home.
But my day didn't end there. I still went to Good Earth after dropping off Ricel and met up with Ces and Joan. I had two more beers. Ces and I were celebrating since it was our last day at work and we had sooo much fun talking and ahem bashing (konti lang naman), *L****S. (Evil laugh)
Happy. Happy. Perfect day.
Right now, I'm at Coffee Bean Morato with Rachelle and we're supposed to be studying for our Agra stint for the elections. Rachelle's actually studying in fairness pero ako, eto online. Bwahaha. Pero I'll study na rin in a while.
My internship's almost over. I'll be done by Tuesday. Whew!!! Yesterday, mukha kaming mga turista sa firm coz we we're taking pictures all over the firm. Hahaha. We even asked Raffy, TJ, Ria and Shelly to come up to our floor. Kala tuloy nila kung ano. Photo-Op lang pala. Hahaha. I'll be uploading the pics as soon as Ricel sends me to them.
Then after work, I met up with the rest of DP over at Greenbelt where we had dinner at Recipes and then tumambay kami sa Coffee Bean dun. Mukha na kong Coffee Bean. OH! And I finally got my Swirl Card. Yay!!! I just soooo love their IceBlended Caramel. Yumm!!! Tapos, we discussed the details of our much-awaited vacay with our hard-earned money. Sayang di na tuloy ang Bora. Ah basta I'm with you guys, okay na yun. Sabay sabay tayong magtampisaw!!!
And there's something wrong with my car. There's a yellow thing that's blinking or whatever. So I went to Toyota today and they said maybe there's something wrong with the engine wires and they'd have to change it. What's really funny was when I got back to my car, the yellow light was gone. Wah. Labo.
Anyway, hafta go study for the elections!
My internship's almost over. I'll be done by Tuesday. Whew!!! Yesterday, mukha kaming mga turista sa firm coz we we're taking pictures all over the firm. Hahaha. We even asked Raffy, TJ, Ria and Shelly to come up to our floor. Kala tuloy nila kung ano. Photo-Op lang pala. Hahaha. I'll be uploading the pics as soon as Ricel sends me to them.
Then after work, I met up with the rest of DP over at Greenbelt where we had dinner at Recipes and then tumambay kami sa Coffee Bean dun. Mukha na kong Coffee Bean. OH! And I finally got my Swirl Card. Yay!!! I just soooo love their IceBlended Caramel. Yumm!!! Tapos, we discussed the details of our much-awaited vacay with our hard-earned money. Sayang di na tuloy ang Bora. Ah basta I'm with you guys, okay na yun. Sabay sabay tayong magtampisaw!!!
And there's something wrong with my car. There's a yellow thing that's blinking or whatever. So I went to Toyota today and they said maybe there's something wrong with the engine wires and they'd have to change it. What's really funny was when I got back to my car, the yellow light was gone. Wah. Labo.
Anyway, hafta go study for the elections!
She hates the way that you make her feel stupid
Even if you really didn't intend to
She hates the way you make her feel
like she'll never be good enough for you
Even if you didn't mean to
Because even if you don't say anything at all
She knows that that's what you're thinking of
And she can see it in your eyes
That's why she thinks it's time to give you up
Not because she doesn't love you anymore
But because you make her feel unworthy and unloved.
And it's such a shame
Coz she thought that you both had something good going
But then she realized
That you couldn't really talk about things
And that there's always this awkard silence
And that what she thought was a feeling of security
was actually emptiness
Because she now sees that you have nothing in common
And it's become clear since when she's been disillusioned
Of the dream that you were both perfect for each other.
She can't describe how she's feeling right now
She doesn't know if she's sad or relieved
Of the fact that she's about to let you go.
Coz last night was the night
That she made her choice
Should she stick with you or not
And I guess the latter choice won
And you even helped her with it
Coz you made her feel more so
That you didn't care at all
And right at that moment
She said to herself,
It's over.
I can't do this anymore.
So I guess it's about time for her
To get used to your presence
Without putting any meaning in the things that you do or say
It's about time for her to stop feeling hurt
Whenever you talk about the one you're with
Coz she never really had such a right anyway.
She should get used to you
Talking about such things
Without her wondering what it would be like
If it were her you were with
And it's about time that she should stop
Shedding all these tears for you
Coz you never really gave a damn
About the things that she thought you had
She believed that you were in it with her
But now you've mader her see
That she was all alone
Right from the very start.
The Waiting Game is becoming so tiring. I should just shift to Neutral Mode. Don’t really wanna go back to THAT PLACE again. Coz I know for a fact that it’ll be so hard to bounce back. Let’s just keep on floating in limbo where at least the possibility of getting hurt would be extremely minimal. Sure, things happen but I won’t allow my thoughts to wander about to things that might not happen at all. To not expect is truly difficult. But I’ve managed to do it for some time haven’t I? Maybe it’s because Disappointment has visited me so many times that I’ve finally become immune to it. I’d just let it pass like sand through my fingers. But still, a few grains remain stuck on my hands and I’d have to shake it off really hard for it to come off. And I mean really hard.
But I’m really happy for the past few things that occurred, I’ve been praying really hard for that. In fairness, kay Lord, ang bilis ng response ha. Hehe. I’ll just continue on with my prayers. If it’s meant to be and it’s His will, I know it will happen. If not, I guess it wasn’t right for me to begin with. That would be really sad but I’d have to accept that.
I’ll never forget it coz I had a glimpse of the things that could be. And it felt right.
The dreaded day is so near already. APRIL 30. Yun na yun eh. Will I be staying or not. I pray each night na I’d be given another chance. Despite the fact that I’ve been given so many chances already. I still hope that God will give me another year in law school. I feel so bad coz I know I still didn’t give it my all. I know that I could’ve done better. Then again, there’s no use for the could haves coz it’s already over and done with.
I guess the only thing that’s left is FAITH, TRUST, and COMPLETE SURRENDER to God’s will.
Lord, you’ve brought me this far, PLEASE HAVE MERCY.
Bwahaha!!! Super laughtrip!
May pa-demure effect pa daw?
Kala ko talaga si Atty. Paul na yun!
On a more stressful note:
It was my 2nd day at work. Early part of the day till after lunch, chillax lang. Just helping out Ricel with some of the stuff assigned to her. We had lunch sa 8th Floor, in fairness masarap yung food and sulit for PhP 110. Then kinaladkad ko si Joy and Ricel sa rooftop. Nakakahiya tuloy dun sa dalawa. Tapos at around 3, I was assigned my own work. Akala ko nung una, kaya. Apparently, medyo complicated pala. Nahirapan ako maghanap ng legal basis for my arguments. I was panicking so much kasi 6 na di pa rin ako tapos and Ces asked me to meet her sa Starbucks Leviste by 6:30. Ayun. Type kung type. Pag-submit ko nung paper diretso labas baka tanungin pa ko eh! Haha. Sana di ako pagalitan bukas.
Pero sabi nga ni Ces, "Can you actually imagine yourself doing that type of work for the rest of your life? Boring na, ang dami pa!"
Haaay...nakakalugmok isipin.
I still have to do my part dun sa na-assign kay Ricel. Waah. Para ulit akong nag- Tax I sa ginagawa ko. Grabe. Sinusumpa ko na ang domestic corporations sa sobrang haba! Payn. Payn. I'll do it na nga.
May pa-demure effect pa daw?
Kala ko talaga si Atty. Paul na yun!
On a more stressful note:
It was my 2nd day at work. Early part of the day till after lunch, chillax lang. Just helping out Ricel with some of the stuff assigned to her. We had lunch sa 8th Floor, in fairness masarap yung food and sulit for PhP 110. Then kinaladkad ko si Joy and Ricel sa rooftop. Nakakahiya tuloy dun sa dalawa. Tapos at around 3, I was assigned my own work. Akala ko nung una, kaya. Apparently, medyo complicated pala. Nahirapan ako maghanap ng legal basis for my arguments. I was panicking so much kasi 6 na di pa rin ako tapos and Ces asked me to meet her sa Starbucks Leviste by 6:30. Ayun. Type kung type. Pag-submit ko nung paper diretso labas baka tanungin pa ko eh! Haha. Sana di ako pagalitan bukas.
Pero sabi nga ni Ces, "Can you actually imagine yourself doing that type of work for the rest of your life? Boring na, ang dami pa!"
Haaay...nakakalugmok isipin.
I still have to do my part dun sa na-assign kay Ricel. Waah. Para ulit akong nag- Tax I sa ginagawa ko. Grabe. Sinusumpa ko na ang domestic corporations sa sobrang haba! Payn. Payn. I'll do it na nga.
